My resolution to fight fear and embrace creativity

I love a good New Year’s resolution.

As an Enneagram 1, there’s something particularly exciting about getting a fresh start and reviving the motivation to conquer my goals. At the end of each December, I love sitting down with my notebook and a new planner to brainstorm all the things I want to do or improve upon in the new year, the 12 months ahead sparkling with possibility.

But it’s so easy to get bogged down in details, to focus on a strict regime that’s not realistic for me. That’s why, over the past couple of years, I’ve chosen a word for my year. This keeps me from being too legalistic, and, instead, helps me to consciously move toward how I want to feel in the near future.

The word I’ve chosen for 2019 is CREATE.

Creativity and I have a complicated relationship. At my core, I love creating. When I was little, I was constantly daydreaming, coming up with stories, and thinking up new ways to do something. But somewhere down the line, my inner critic got the best of me and I became convinced that nothing I did was creative or good enough. And while I’ve kept creating in doses, every time I sit in front of a blank screen or attempt to do something semi-creative, I have to fight against a lot of anxiety and fear to make any progress.

I’m tired of letting fear keep me from doing what I love. By God, I am a creative person and it’s time I start reclaiming that. So, to combat the anxiety and get back to my creative roots, I’ve decided to give myself a little challenge this year that will hopefully force me to push past all that negative self talk and just have fun.

Even though this creativity challenge is going to be super simple and the goal is to reduce the stress that comes with creating, I do have some basic ground rules to keep me on track:

Rule #1: I have to create something once a week. It doesn’t matter when and it doesn’t matter if it takes me an hour or 15 minutes each day for a week.

Rule #2: It can be ANYTHING. The whole point of this challenge is to not put myself in a box. So I’m giving myself complete creative freedom here to do whatever the heck I want. Drawing, writing, singing, knitting, taking a cool photo. Whatever I see as creative fits.

Rule #3: I have to post it on some form of social media. I’m going to be recording each week’s progress on my blog, but I am also going to try to share it via my Instagram simply for the accountability and the fact that I’m trying to get over the fear of sharing my work, no matter how “bad” I think it is.

So that’s my resolution for 2019–to be more creative. I’m actually really looking forward to giving myself permission to have fun each week. If this sounds like something you’d also like to do, please join me and share posts of you being creative this year. Good luck with whatever your goals are!

#CREATE 2019

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A freelance writer from the Deep South with a love of reading, writing, dramatic storytelling, indie music, and her corgi pup.

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